We were never married and we have a wonderful 15 month old daughter, who (as many of you can all understand) I love more than anything. He and I are in the process of separating. I know it is the right thing for our/the relationship, but i still get sad/nervous about things.
1) will she be ok? she is so cute and vulnerable right now, my heart is so connected to her, I can't help but question what the impacts of the decision to break up will have on her
2)will I be ok? nothing like going through a breakup to remind you how lonely life can feel. and i can't get depressed! I have to be a mom!
3)will he and I be able to get along? i know that it is best for her that her father and I be amicable. I feel like I have put my real reactions towards him aside so often lately to keep peace between he and I. When do you stop bending and stick up for what you think when you have a child with him?
4) (I was hesitant to write this one because hopefully something I can just get over) How do I date? I feel like I have NO tolerance for guys. I am a mom now. I don't want to deal with any of the "having to date a guy" stuff. I am totally a man hater right now. Guys= emotionally dumb (please tell me I'm wrong...)
Friday, May 7, 2010
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